𝚕𝚒𝚔𝚎 𝚊 𝕊𝕋𝕆ℝ𝕄 𝚊𝚝 𝚜𝚎𝚊

Your mind is like the ocean, like a storm at sea;

those negative, debilitating, & paralyzing thoughts come in waves, big intense loud waves, like the ones that thrash up the shore when a storm is brewing,

only the sky doesn’t get dark when those tidal waves of debilitating thoughts are about to bombard your conscious mind &

clouds don’t deplete the sky of it’s bright blue radiant color or cast overcast as means to forewarn you of what’s on the forefront…..

in fact most of the time it’s sunny outside when those paralyzing thoughts engulf and overwhelm you,

but even still those thoughts are strong and powerful like waves in that violent way of storms and their roar echoes across your entire being causing your whole body to shake and shut down.

It all happens so suddenly,

the darkness unfolds; strangling your mind, paralyzing your body.

And all at once you are lost in time, you seek the light,

but with no warning at all, total darkness prevails as your dismal and deafening thoughts rage on, growing bolder and more fierce by the second in the way that waves do when a storm is coming to sea,

if you’re blinded by tears in your eyes, you’re lucky in a way because at least you feel something....

sometimes, tears don’t come, sometimes, you’re too numb.

& you can’t see past tomorrow.

comfort, relief, hope, and peace refuse you

and your thoughts continue to abuse your mind, your body, your soul; YOU as they unapologetically thrash into your consciousness as if it is the shore itself,

Sometimes these moments pass, and sometimes you go on like this for days, weeks, months even...

And those debilitating thoughts continue to roll in, at times they're less aggressive and you think the sun might be on the horizon but before you know it, with no warning at all, like a storm at sea,

Those debilitating thoughts roll in, like the waves of the storm, each of them as strong and bold as the last, they are relentless and continue to come without fear of the shore, embracing their destiny upon the sands of your conscious and unconscious mind….

undeniably, the feelings that thoughts as intense as these generate are strong and powerful beyond measure,

they bind together like a hurricane of desolation, hopelessness, inadequacy, and unworthiness,

evil by nature, they swirl around making you dizzy in the head,

like gusts of unforgiving wind, their neverending torments hiss in your head,

they’re so angry, they want you to lay numb in your bed

BUT regardless of how convincing and omnipotent your thoughts may feel,

I can promise you that you most definitely would not be better off dead.

your thoughts are liars and must not be fed.

Tomorrow needs you. I swear it does;

so to the you that resonated with my words,

To the you that cries alone at night in bed & has to cover up your mouth so that you don’t make a sound as tears of desolation and emptiness soak your pillow,

To the you that cannot get out of bed in the morning because the day ahead seems to be too much,

To the you that feels empty. hollow. not good enough. weak. small. not important. inferior; like you’re unworthy of love, like you’ll never amount to anything, like you’ll never find happiness, like your unworthy of life;

to the you that sometimes feels like tomorrow would be better without you in it,

this post is for you....

so please read these next lines very closely:

Non of those thoughts are true.

Read that again. & ten more times.

I know you don’t believe me & I know those thoughts can be strong and paralyzing and exert so much power & control over you that you can’t not believe them....

I know, I promise I get it, but I also promise you with my whole entire heart that NONE OF THOSE THOUGHTS ARE TRUE. not a single one of them. Zero of them hold any truth within them.... & I know you feel alone, lost, and weak and like no one truly knows but I know. I know how crushing, controlling, unforgiving, and merciless both your thoughts and emotions can be,

It’s like those debilitating thoughts hit you like a tidal wave and like waves crashing to the shore during a ruthless storm,

your thoughts bombard your mind, one after the other, each new one a bit harsher than the last; polluting, infesting, and plaguing the once uncontaminated and pure precious sands of your consciousness leaving feelings of guilt, shame, self-hatred, sorrow, pity, anger, rage, and desolation washed up on the shore of your brilliant & beautiful mind....

& then such filthy, unseemly, & overpowering emotions lay there seeping into the very soil that programs your brain, the very minerals that wire you to think & act & exist making your own mind, the entity that seeks to destroy you most,

Making your own mind your greatest enemy, something like a beast who is obsessed with your demise and seeks to suffocate you,

and you can’t breathe.

It feels like you cannot breathe. But you can breathe, right now you can, so breathe. Take a deep breath, in through your nose and out through your mouth, and then

please repeat after me:

I am worthy. I am enough. I am brave.

I am beautiful. I am loved. I am important. I am intelligent. I am brave. I am fierce. and perhaps most importantly of all;

I am strong; strong enough to keep going, no matter how many times I want to quit.

because I am not the shore but rather the ocean itself and my thoughts,

like the unforgiving waves of the storms at sea, will not defeat me,

for they are me

and I will not be defeated,

I am the storm at sea.

- Yours Trulee <3